Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Amazing Sweet n Sour Meat loaf!
Monday, March 30, 2015
Favorite things
Sorry I missed last week! I was at my grandmas funeral. My birthday was last week so I love doing a favorite things post. After a crazy sad week it was hard to find much positive that day. So I decided to pick a few of my favorite things.
One of my favorite things is dirty diet coke.
They are super simple to make.
All you need is diet coke, ice, fresh lime and coconut syrup.
Fill a cup about half full of ice
Cut your lime into quarters.
pour the coconut syrup over the ice. I usually use a few tablespoons.
Take 1 or 2 lime quarters squeeze over the ice and lay on top of the ice skin side down flesh up.
Pour the coke over the top
The syrup tends to sink to the bottom so stir it up every once in a while to get the full effect.
So that is one of my favorite things
My other are these 3 crazies! I love them more than anything (even diet coke) I have no idea where I'd be with out them. Through everything I know I will always have them!
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Alien Phone Noises
There was a time when I was talking to my sister on my phone we had been talking awhile probably over 30 mins or so and mid way through a sentence all of a sudden I hear, breathing, static, high pitched noises, just plain weirdness! It freaked me out! So we both hung up because, you cant hear the other person on the other line through the "Alien noises". My sister calls back and we are both weirded out and discuss the madness. It had been the first time anything like that had happened so I kinda just brushed it off.
Well yesterday as my pediatricians office called to remind me of my sons 2 yr old well check appointment it happened AGAIN! This time it was right away, I said "hello" the person said" is this Jeremy's mom?" and I said yes. Then it proceeded into doing the creepy noises again. She hung up and called me back and was quite freaked out as was I that this had now happened twice.
So after getting off the phone this time, I texted my sister saying it had happened again, and I started googling " alien noises" on phones. Well I found tons of You tube videos and stories of this all happening to other people! Most of whom were like me KINDA FREAKED OUT after hearing these noises. Here is a link to one of the video on you tube that is preety much the same noise I heard https://video.search.yahoo.com/video/play;_ylt=A2KIo9U86xZVHxEAKxf7w8QF;_ylu=X3oDMTByN2RnbHFoBHNlYwNzcgRzbGsDdmlkBHZ0aWQDBGdwb3MDMw--?p=alien+phone+noises&vid=ad4e173ea2697df5fe5a25741b7a4480&l=00%3A46&turl=http%3A%2F%2Fts1.mm.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3DVN.608051074786201002%26pid%3D15.1&rurl=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DK5jxG0NTfnE&tit=Weird+Alien+Noise+over+iphone+call&c=2&sigr=11bdrqphj&sigt=112erconn&sigi=11r95sh7r&age=1402211449&fr2=p%3As%2Cv%3Av&fr=sfp&tt=b Crazy right? Well as I was investigating there were some that were the logical phone repair people that said this is just a radio waves interference, or cell phones too close together or your phone needs to be turned off and turned back on. Whatever it was its still creepy, and still a mystery! My husband jokingly said well good thing it wasn't on a baby monitor. Ha ha in reference to the movies SIGNS. I have picked up others talking on my baby monitor before but nothing like this. If this happens again I might get a new phone and go from there. Or I hope my husband doesn't find me gone because I was abducted by aliens. :)
EMILY :)
Friday, March 27, 2015
Four Things
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Let yourself off the hook!
I wander into the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. But I don't see the Mom who stayed up until late helping my son get his term project done for the thousandth time, or the Mom who made lunch for the kids before they left, signed their planners and gave them their meds, who made sure to do the I love you sign language for my autistic son, because it makes him feel secure and ready to leave with carpool. I made sure all four boys got a hug before he walked out the door. But that is not what I see. I see a Mom who made everyone late because she hit snooze and couldn't get up. The girl, who, no matter how much time she has, just can't seem to get all of her stuff done. I see all of my shortcomings and the day is just beginning.
Since when did we start to be so hard on ourselves? From a very early age, I think most of us can remember seeing and hearing Moms, sisters, or friends, who fell short and made mistakes, for one reason or another. And always it was accompanied by gossip of another girl judging them. It was then that we thought, "There is no way I am EVER going to do that!? I will never make those mistakes." But then, as is normal, you make a mistake. And you remember a previous instance where a person you know was judged for doing exactly what you just did. And you judge yourself! You heap all of that judgement and weight on your back for making a mistake. It builds up over time as we make more and more mistakes, some little and some not so little. It adds to the stress of our lives and continues to make us feel inadequate, no matter what we do right. At some point, the madness has to stop!
We need to let ourselves off the hook! We need to look in the mirror and see all the good things we are. And know that in spite of our worst mistake, we have so much value! Life is about making mistakes and learning from them. Instead of letting them pile up and make us feel totally worthless, we need to help each other to get rid of that burden. Once we have been able to get out from under all of that, we can be so happy! I challenge anyone who is reading this blog to find ways to tell the women in your life the things they are doing right and that you are impressed with! Let them know how much you admire them and tell them you love them! We are hard enough on ourselves and hearing those things that we do well from an outside source can be just what we need to shake off all of those judgments and be the women we were meant to be!
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Grief: survivor of suicide and tragic loss..
Four years ago on March 25th I lost three of my closest, most looked up to, cherished, heroes, and loved ones to a suicide/murder tragedy.
I am numb thinking of those events that day and the days that followed.
I went through all stages of grief over and over.
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
I know the pain of each stage and the real heart ache of it all.
I was stuck in a hard, dark place longer then I should have been. It was hard to get out of it.
My trail and struggle through the grief is a long story.
What got me through was finally accepting what had happened. Even with it happening I still had my Father in Heaven. That had not changed. I still had the family I did have, that did not change. I took some big steps to turn myself away from that darkness and now I have my husband, the gospel, and a baby on the way!
I had to accept that even though what had happened did, it didn't change the fact that I knew my loved ones. I knew that they would have wanted me to be happy. That they would have wanted me to have faith and live the gospel I believed in.
Grief never ends... but it changes. It's a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith... it is the price of love.
Most days I look to Heaven in so much love I have for my loved ones. Some days are hard though, and I still ask why. I still am mad that it happened. I still wish for them back. But I know that families are eternal and I have answers from God that they will be there no matter what watching over me and my family.
I have survived this. I have triumphed through the hardest thing to go through. I have my Heavenly Father by my side. I have Angels watching over. I am full of love that this time for the love that was and the love is and the new love I have.
"Even After all this time, I still can't believe you are gone."
"I loved you yesterday. I love you still always have always will!"
"Nothing is the same I wish you were here"
"I'm thankful for every moment I had with you. Every tear, laughter, and smile. Those memories will remain with me for the rest of my days"
"I walk down memory lane because I know that I'll run into you there."
"Some days the memories still knock the wind out of me.."
"No wheel chairs needed in heaven!"
"You are missed each and every day. For you were someone special who meant more than words can say."
"You left this world but forgot to tell my heart how to live without you"
"My heart is full of memories with pride I speak your name though life goes on without you it will never be the same."
"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, but love leaves a memory that no one can steal."
"Thinking of you is easy, I do it everyday missing you is the heartache that never goes away."
"A smile can hide the tears, a laugh can hide the pain, but nothing stops the longing for having you back again"
"The tears in my eyes I can wipe away the ache in my heart there it will always stay"
"To say I miss you is an understatement."
"Since heaven has become your home I sometimes feel I'm so alone, but one day all the pain will cease when God restores this missing piece."
"although you can't be here with me we're truly not apart you'll be living in my heart"
I would never wish anyone to loose a close loved one in such away. My heart just aches and relates in a way I wish I didn't have to...
Forever in my hearts Kathy, Jim and Erik! <3
For today I allow myself to grieve.
Friday, March 20, 2015
Zofran Baby
Thursday, March 19, 2015
Arrow Tutorial
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
That song in my head
I was going through my list of songs I turn to and thought it would be fun to share.
High school graduation Here's to the night by Eve 6
When I married my husband July 16 2009 Blue Jeans and a Rosary by Kid Rock
When I had both my babies May 2010 and October 2014 They are such bright spots in my memory.
Just recently when my daughter was diagnosed with diabetes as soon as we were told to get to the ER this song popped into my head and I didn't stop singing it for weeks. I had the song in my head all the way to the hospital the whole time we were there and for weeks after.
Katy Perry Roar.
At the end of the video she roars into the tigers face and he isn't so scary any more. I feel like diabetes is my tiger and there is no way I will let it win. That and my girl has always loved this song especially the music video.
On days that we hate diabetes or we are sad about something we dance to
Shake it off by Taylor Swift
Lately I have been feeling a little hopeless and sad and, sometimes I feel like I can't take much more but I know I have to.
This has been my go to song. Especially today I found out my sweet grandma passed away last night and my heart just aches so much I am going to miss her terribly I have listened to this song about 100 times today.
Broken by Lindsey Haun
Now these songs aren't necessarily the song that was playing at the time it's just what reminded me of the moment. It's really important to me because every time I hear these songs it brings a very vivid memory good or bad and I love it. There are many more songs and many more memories I just thought I would share a few of my favorites.
Now tell me, what song is in your head?
Monday, March 16, 2015
Easy baby blanket
Today I'm going to show you a simple way to make a baby blanket. No seriously you will be amazed at how simple it really is. I love using flannel for them it's easy and you don't need batting if you don't want it. Flannel is really cheap too at the end of winter I usually stock up on it.
What you want is to start with 2 pieces of the same size. You can do a square or rectangle. I like more of the rectangle shape because it works really well in my bassinet but it's totally up to you.
First you take both pieces and lay them right sides together
Then you sew around it all leaving a small opening to flip it right side out.
Once you have it flipped right side out you close the opening how ever you prefer. Then you need to iron it so it lays flat especially around the seams because you're going to top stich.
After you iron it you top stitch. I usually just line the seam at the right side of my presser foot so it's about 1/4 in seam allowance give or take. This is where you can do just a straight seam or have fun using the patterns on your machine that you have never used before. Seriously I've had my machine a year and this was my first time doing more than a straight stitch and it was so fun.
There you have it super simple. If you have any questions shoot me a comment and I'll help any way I can.
Sour Cream Sugar Cookies!
At a relief Society activity my neighbor made these wonderful cookies. I begged for the recipe to be able to make them myself.
One Sunday afternoon I made them.
They were super easy and super yummy!
Unlike other sugar cookies they stayed soft! They were moist! A few days latter they still tasted fresh out of the oven good! The taste is comparable to the soft loft house sugar cookies!
I highly think that you ought to try them out!
I have had a sugar cookie recipe and yes its a good one specially because it came from my grandma, but I think these are my new favorite!
They only took 8 minutes to bake!
I topped them with my favorite sprinkles and my butter cream recipe!
Stay tuned and I will share my secret butter cream recipe I use for cake decorating. It is delicious!
Sour Cream Sugar Cookies
1 cup Sugar
1/2 cup shortening
2 eggs
1 cup Sour Cream
1 tsp Vanilla
1 tsp Salt
1 tsp baking soda
2 tsp baking powder
4 cups flour
Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Mix ingredients. Roll out and cut out using flour for non stick. Spray a pan and space out the cut outs. Bake for 8 minutes.
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Being a Tall Girl Rocks
Oh Yes the tall girl is back.:) After exploring the cons of being tall. I'm now going to explore the pros of being a 6'2 woman.